Friends & Confessions
I love my friends...
Whether they are Real Life friends or my Cyber friends....
When I have reached bottom and think that I can not crawl any further under the covers....my friends stick a hand out and grab on to me!!
It has happened in both of my worlds!! Can you believe how lucky and loved I feel....
1st...Shana reached out to me on Facebook...ON MY BIRTHDAY!! But, I was still hiding under the covers...feeling really sorry for myself....
Then my beloved R, sent me a simple no bull email....I sent her a text back immediately....I really do not know what I would do with out her in my life. She is the one that tells me like it is....doesn't let me hide. She gives me my space and then throws the anchor out and reels me back in.....
Being on the outside and looking in she has actually given me lots of insight on my depression patterns....Things that I have not even noticed!!
So every 3 months or so, I get depressed, I never swing high and have a manic period. I just level back out and then 3 months later I drop back down the rabbit hole. Also, each trip down the rabbit hole is longer and harder to reach me.
I know that at this point in time I still have one foot in the rabbit hole....BUT...I am sick to death of missing my life!! Tonight was the first time I put make on since Christmas Eve. Honestly, tonight was the first that even bothered to look human since Christmas Eve.
I know that birthday parties are not a life ending ordeal, but I was soooooo depressed and pissed off at the world that I did not even bother to have a small get together for my son's 6 birthday. I set aside some money, took him to Wal-Mart and told him he could pick any toy he wanted. Yep...that was my son's big 6th birthday. No pictures, not friends, no games...I did pick up Cupcakes for his class and eat lunch with him at school that day. Yeah, not my best Mom of the Year moment!!
Do you have a Mom of the Year moment???


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Whether they are Real Life friends or my Cyber friends....
When I have reached bottom and think that I can not crawl any further under the covers....my friends stick a hand out and grab on to me!!
It has happened in both of my worlds!! Can you believe how lucky and loved I feel....
1st...Shana reached out to me on Facebook...ON MY BIRTHDAY!! But, I was still hiding under the covers...feeling really sorry for myself....
Then my beloved R, sent me a simple no bull email....I sent her a text back immediately....I really do not know what I would do with out her in my life. She is the one that tells me like it is....doesn't let me hide. She gives me my space and then throws the anchor out and reels me back in.....
Being on the outside and looking in she has actually given me lots of insight on my depression patterns....Things that I have not even noticed!!
So every 3 months or so, I get depressed, I never swing high and have a manic period. I just level back out and then 3 months later I drop back down the rabbit hole. Also, each trip down the rabbit hole is longer and harder to reach me.
I know that at this point in time I still have one foot in the rabbit hole....BUT...I am sick to death of missing my life!! Tonight was the first time I put make on since Christmas Eve. Honestly, tonight was the first that even bothered to look human since Christmas Eve.
I know that birthday parties are not a life ending ordeal, but I was soooooo depressed and pissed off at the world that I did not even bother to have a small get together for my son's 6 birthday. I set aside some money, took him to Wal-Mart and told him he could pick any toy he wanted. Yep...that was my son's big 6th birthday. No pictures, not friends, no games...I did pick up Cupcakes for his class and eat lunch with him at school that day. Yeah, not my best Mom of the Year moment!!
Do you have a Mom of the Year moment???







