Friends & Confessions

Friends & Confessions

I love my friends...

Whether they are Real Life friends or my Cyber friends....

When I have reached bottom and think that I can not crawl any further under the covers....my friends stick a hand out and grab on to me!!

It has happened in both of my worlds!! Can you believe how lucky and loved I feel....

1st...Shana reached out to me on Facebook...ON MY BIRTHDAY!! But, I was still hiding under the covers...feeling really sorry for myself....

Then my beloved R, sent me a simple no bull email....I sent her a text back immediately....I really do not know what I would do with out her in my life. She is the one that tells me like it is....doesn't let me hide. She gives me my space and then throws the anchor out and reels me back in.....

Being on the outside and looking in she has actually given me lots of insight on my depression patterns....Things that I have not even noticed!!

So every 3 months or so, I get depressed, I never swing high and have a manic period. I just level back out and then 3 months later I drop back down the rabbit hole. Also, each trip down the rabbit hole is longer and harder to reach me.

I know that at this point in time I still have one foot in the rabbit hole....BUT...I am sick to death of missing my life!! Tonight was the first time I put make on since Christmas Eve. Honestly, tonight was the first that even bothered to look human since Christmas Eve.

I know that birthday parties are not a life ending ordeal, but I was soooooo depressed and pissed off at the world that I did not even bother to have a small get together for my son's 6 birthday. I set aside some money, took him to Wal-Mart and told him he could pick any toy he wanted. Yep...that was my son's big 6th birthday. No pictures, not friends, no games...I did pick up Cupcakes for his class and eat lunch with him at school that day. Yeah, not my best Mom of the Year moment!!

Do you have a Mom of the Year moment???

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Husbands....

Husbands....

I have been in my hermitt mode for awhile....

That seems to happen every winter....




My husband has been laid off.

It has been rough....



Kids have been...
GREAT!!!
Messy!!
Loud!!
Silly!!
Growing up!!
Pains in the ASS!!
Whiney!!
Fighting!!
Cuddley!!


How have you been??

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I have WON!!!

I have WON!!!

I have won the battle!!!!

I have cheated at winning the battle!!
I NO LONGER HAVE LAUNDRY!!!!!!
Heheheheheheh....

If you have been reading this blog for any length of time...
YOU KNOW I HATE LAUNDRY!!!!

I absolutely hate laundry!! I would rather go buy new socks than have to sort and put away hundreds of socks!!

I hate it all!!

Well, I have cheated...I have a super genie on my side!! Allie....she came in and folded, hung, and sorted PILES and PILES of laundry in about 1 and 1/2 hours. I swear what she did would have taken me all day!!

I am not really sure why I can not complete the simple task of laundry....BUT REALLY I CAN NOT!!!

I have no problem washing it...not problem throwing it in the dryer...BUT THEN....I lose whatever motivation I had.

Well, now I have a super genie and all of my laundry issues are solved!!! She also keeps me on my toes about my other household issues!!

What battle do you wish to win!!

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I would like to scream now....11/17

I would like to scream now....11/17

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Here is the idea:
Anything and everything that bothers you...
Vent about here...


So here goes....

HOLIDAYS!!!

I hate the Holidays!! I am a HUGE Bah-Humbug Grouch!! It is not the presents, money, decorating, and cooking....

It is the family!! FAMILY, FAMILY, FAMILY, and more FAMILY!!!!

Here is the deal...I have two families, MOM's Side, DAD's Side...
Mom's side is all women, who Bitch and Moan the whole day...with 1000's of ankle bitting yappy dogs!!
Dad's side is VERY small...Uncle and Grandma....with glass tables and more ankle bitting yappy dogs!!

Hubbs also has MOM's side and DAD's Side....
Mom's side is fairly okay...BUT...it is 14 people crammed into a a sardine can....6 of who are hyper happy kids being YELLED at to wipe their feet, eat their food, don't slam the door, do not talk over your brother, do not answer for your brother, move away from the TV, and it goes on and on all day!!
Dad's side is AWESOME!!!! LOVE DAD's SIDE!!!

So, a few years ago I PUT MY FOOT DOWN...I decided I would not travel all over the Coastal Bend to make EVERYONE happy...

First Year...I had Thanksgiving at my house and TRAVELED for Christmas, Kids thought that Christmas was a week long and TOTALLY lost the concept of what it was...soooo

2nd Year...Did all families on Thanksgiving...REALLY FULL!!! Four Turkeys in one day!! Had Christmas at my house..open door thing come as your schedule allowed..I served Fajitas...I still had 3 days of Christmas!! Weeks later kids still thought that we would get presents if we went to a family members house!!

Last Year....All Families again at Thanksgiving...Only Two Turkeys and two coffee and pies...much better!!! Christmas was again at my house, HUGE Ham and all the fixings...Open Door...come as you like...Fairly good turn out...BUT the BITCHES from my family decided that they did not wanna mix with Hubbs family so had their own dinner at my mom's house 2 miles away....screw thwm was my thought....I GOT A HUGE GUILT TRIP TO COME OVER!!! Me being a weakling left mt house on Christmas Day and went to give my grandmother a kiss..dropped my sister off...and came back home....LIED to my husband and said I needed more sodas from the store....

THIS YEAR...So far this is what is happening..THANKSGIVING..Mom's Side is going Camping?? Not real Sure about that....I WAS NOT INVITED...they assumed I would do Thanksgiving with Hubbs Family...Okay Fair Enough, but an invite would have been nice!! WE WILL be crammed into the Sardine can with Hubbs family and Seafood Stuffing...YUCK! I think I will also bring a long a NORMAL stuffing...Bitchy I know....And I have already stolen one of my sisters Zanax to calm myself while Mother-In-Law is doing all the yelling at MY CHILDREN!!!
And Now For Christmas....I am having another open house come as you are with all the fixings...MY MOTHER'S SIDE will be once again 2 miles away doing their own thing!! I REFUSE TO make an appearance!!

Family...isn't it GREAT!!!

**** Scream Now Meme will be posted Once a week on Mondays...Yeah, I was a day late...I was reading...***

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Random Thoughts-11/17

Random Thoughts-11/17

Wooo-Hoooo 2nd week in a row on the same meme!! I know I am bad!!! Please check out The UNMOM for lots more Randomness....

I have been reading a lot!! An old friend suggested WIDE AWAKE, which is a FanFic of the whole Twilight Series....so not Vampire Related, BUT VERY VERY GOOD....


My house is a DISASTER!!! Hey!! I have been reading!!


My sister in law is making Seafood stuffing for Thanksgiving...REALLY!! YUCK!!! Why do people have to mess with Traditions...come on!!!

I have created a MONSTER!!!

My children often fight a lot...about silly things....How to spell CAT or what color the sky is...IT GETS VERY TIRING!!! My daughter is EXTREMELY smart-smarter than her parents(I did not admit that...), which makes losing an argument with her impossible!! A while ago I noticed this had a VERY adverse effect on my son...so, trying to teach lessons I would send my son off to a different room...not correcting him and trying to let him think he was right....and I would talk to LuvBug and explain to her that "Yes, even though you are right, YOU can just walk away...YOU know the correct answer, BUT YOU DO NOT have to fight to the death until your brother agrees with you"

My thoughts were that...Bubbs would get a little self confidence and not always feel wrong and Siss would learn that not EVERY argument is worth the battle.

I have TOTALLY FAILED!!!! My son now fights her tooth and nail!!! EVERYTHING!!! And if he doesn't have the last word there is HELL to pay!! Sadly...he is often wrong....

I still have Halloween decorations up!!
I HAVE BEEN READING!!!

My husband went hunting this weekend...I ate Ben and Jerrys Coffee Heath Bar Crunch for Dinner!! Kids had PB&J sandwhiches...thats how we roll when Daddy is away!!!


Mt sister is a doormat...always has been!!! For the last 10 years she has had some bum or another living on her couch...some boyfriends some just friends...NONE have ever had a Car, JOB, MONEY...she has MAJOR karma points built up...she has been working out an arangement for a girlfriend to move in with her and SHARE the rent. The friend is having MAJOR money problems....Today at breakfast my sister says..."Why am I gonna charge her rent? None of the other guys paid rent! At least she has a car and a job!" Gotta LOVE MY SISTER!!!!!

I LOVE MY DAILY BREAKFASTS WITH MY SISTER!!!

I haven't gotten ANY Christmas shopping done!!

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ReReading Favorites...Twilight

ReReading Favorites...Twilight

Last October (08), while LuvBug was recouping from a tonsillectomy, I was introduced to Edward. And Bella...BUT mostly Edward.

For those of you who have been under a rock, Yes, I am talking about Twilight.

I read A LOT....lots of Chic Lit...Nothing serious...Fun Brainless Reads.... I have always been an avid reader. I love to read series of books, like the Shopaholic series. I like to read all of one writers books before I move onto a new author. I am weird...I KNOW!! But, in all of my reading, I have never reread the same author's books more than I have reread the Twilight Saga.

I totally got SUCKED IN....NO, I do not have posters in my closet, or wear the t-shirts, BUT I am an addicted!!! I have read all 4 books about 4 or 5 times. I keep them on the book shelf and when Hubby is watching Nascar nothing good is on TV, I grab any one of the books and start reading.

I just finished rereading Eclipse and Breaking Dawn. I forget how FUNNY Jacob is and the 'soap opera' surrounding the wolves. I laugh, cry, and fall in love with the characters all over again. Sometimes I sympathize with Bella and sometimes I am completely annoyed with her. Sometimes I am totally 'Team Edward', other times I waiver and slip over to 'Team Jacob'.

Last November, a group of friends and I, went to the midnight showing of Twilight. It was a BLAST!! I had so much fun with my friends and enjoyed the movie...I had, had several Mojitos..but hay...I got to look at a pretty boy all night!!

While re watching the movie, I noticed how cheesy it was portrayed. Seriously lacking in the acting/directing department...I have watched it SEVERAL more times...just to see if I was being prejudices because I love the books so much. I am torn..not really sure!!

I hope that New Moon is better and I really hope that they can pull it off. It is so hard to recreate a 500 page book into a 1.5 hr movie. We all have our favorite scenes, and we picture the characters a certain way. We as a culture have LOVED Edward, Bella, and Jacob for so long...They have become part of our fantasy worlds....No one can ever turn our individual fantasies into real life movies....

I have no real point to this post...just blabbing about my addiction to Edward...oh, okay...The Twilight Saga....

I WANNA KNOW...

What do you think of the books? The movies?? Our cultures obsession with Vampires?? Are you addicted to any of the current Vampire Trends..ie...True Blood, Vampire Diary, Twilight???

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